Sleep per Day: (Target) 7h30m / day (Actual) 7h27m / day (83 day average)
The symptoms are subtle but hard to miss.
The more stressed out I am, the more I want to sleep.
The more stressed out I am, the more easily I get sick.
The more stressed out I am, the more I want to eat high calorie food.
The more stressed out I am, the more I want to cry for no apparent reason.
The more stressed out I am, the more I want to push away everyone and spend time alone.
Am I pushing myself too hard? I don’t know.
I think the worst thing to do is to lose the habits I’ve been building since I committed to writing on this blog regularly, eg. writing a blog post every 1-2 days, calisthenics during weekend, have 7.5+ hours of sleep, invest surplus of money at beginning of every month, read during my commute, catch up with 1+ friend every week.
At the same time I’ve cancelled volunteering with Crossroads. Having had the volunteer coordinator not be there for 2 times within 2 months after a long ass expensive trip (at least 1.5 hours) and also not finding the volunteering experience interesting, I think I’m better off using my weekends to fully relax. Philanthropy should not come at the expense of your lifestyle after all.
I also want to take this chance to add an extra habit, which is to meditate 15 minutes every morning and night. As for the type of meditation, I want to do a hold my breath type meditation.
Let’s see if relaxing a bit on my commitments and giving more time for me to do nothing (free weekends and daily meditations) will help.